I dreamed one night I was walking with the Lord.
No one else was in sight, just He and I -
Walking beside one another along the horizon of time.
From where we stood the entire world was visible before us.
All that was in the past, in the present,
And that which is to be
Played out before us like a long movie.
What struck me most though, was the fact that
I could see every tiny detail of each life that
Ever was and ever to be on this earth -
No matter how short or long, how great or small.
In deed I was even able to see back to the beginning of time -
When there was only God as the world was being created,
And I could see towards the future, to the world’s last day -
When all that is God’s returns to God.
Yes, I could even see the details of my life played out in entirety
All actions big and small, tried, sinful and true.
Embarrassed and scared to be in His presence at that moment
I hesitantly asked, “Lord, I am confused.
Why is it that You have brought me here?”
Understanding my fear He smiled knowingly down at me
And with a hand on my shoulder He said,
“Be not afraid my child for I AM here with you.
I brought you here not to punish you but to show you
What you could not see. All that was, that is and that which shall be
Lives in front of us; This is what I see from day to day
For I AM present not at a specific time but at all times -
What is the past and the future to man
Is the present to ME with each rise and fall of the ocean’s tide.
From here I can see all that would make a Father proud,
All that could sadden Him, but most importantly
From here I can see all that is needed to be in the world
To ensure the best benefits and protection of the Father’s Children.”
“And who, if I may ask Lord, do You consider Thy children to be?
The religious, the non-religious,
And how about me?” I blurted out in one breath.
He responded patiently:
“The Father’s children are all those who He created,
Breathed life and shined light into, for though their bodies
Were made of dust and shall return to dust,
Their souls are of the Devine.
And though some may not know ME,
And some may reject ME I ask you,
“How does a Father ever deny that which bares His image?”
A parent’s love for a child knows no boundaries, no reasons, no cost.
That is why I have given of Myself,
So that My children may be given
The best that the Father has to offer;
The denial only comes from the child
For though I love them perfect or flawed, I can not
Make them love ME, just as you can’t be
Made to love another … the human heart is permitted its own will.
And as for you My child, My answer lies in your answer:
Do you accept ME?
Do you love ME?”
I was quick to answer the Lord,
“Yes! Lord, You know that I love You-
That I need You through all my days.
For without You I can do nothing, I am nothing -
And that would render my life to be useless.”
He laughed warmly at my intensity and said,
“Yes, my child, I do know.
That question was meant more to reassure you
Of your place in My Kingdom, for what Father does not love
A child who loves Him?
Do you understand what I AM saying to you?
“Yes, Lord, I do understand,” I responded softly.
But as we walked on in silence I couldn’t help but to remember
The images I saw that reflected my own life.
For though my efforts were true to His will, there was no denying
The many times I knowingly disobeyed Him.
Reflecting on my sins I suddenly felt embarrassed
And naked again in front of the Lord … I wondered hesitantly
If He was seeing me in such modesty.
Then suddenly He placed His comforting arm
Around my shoulder as if
He could see clearly what I dared not ask.
The Lord was first to break our silence and said,
“I brought you here to show you all that the human eyes can not see.
So that you can be free of questions, assured of My love,
And learn to better trust ME.
Is there anything further you’d like to ask ME
Before it is our time to go?
I promise to answer you with only truths
For anything less can not be of ME.”
Not wanting to miss the opportunity of a life time I jumped right in,
“Yes, Lord. There’s just one more thing
I’ve always wondered if You could tell me.
How could You still love me after what You’ve seen?
Please tell me what can I do to earn more of Your precious love?”
I tensed up while waiting for His answer
and the worse responses ran through my mind.
The Lord then stopped walking, knelt down to my level until
My nervous eyes could no longer dodge His.
He looked into me with such warmth and tenderness then said:
“My precious child, if you can remember nothing else from our walk today
Then try to remember for ME only this –
My love for you is true and eternal just as I AM.
And that which is forever can never fade.
What I’ve given to you I gave you in entirety before
You were even conceived in your mother’s womb.
You only need to accept it to know its fullness for at no time
Can I, your heavenly Father, ever give you anything less.
Do you understand what I AM saying to you?”
Feeling the rawness of His intense love for me at that moment,
Seeing the truthfulness in His warm gaze I quivered
Because of the intensity of it all,
Slowly I managed to nod with tearful delight.
As we walked on in total silence looking at all of time that was before us
I tried to absorb in all that I had seen and had heard
Before the precious moment slipped away –
I replayed the Lord’s words to me that day over again in my mind
And tried to get a grasp on comprehending just
How much God really loves all of us,
But my human mind is limited and my fallible heart is small
Compared to His – such an intense and raw love
I’ve never known else where
The only image that I could draw in my mind
To describe the Father’s love for mankind was the image of
The Lord, tattered and torn in flesh but not spirit,
Hanging on a wooden cross with His feet nailed, His side speared,
And His arms stretched out to their ultimate limits as if to say:
“I love you this much!”