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She lives ALONE except for her pet. If it weren’t for her pet to talk to and give and receive love from, she would really be alone. She goes to work and is around people, talking and interacting with them, but then they go back to their desks and she is left alone in her tiny world. They don’t ask her to do anything with them after work. After work she goes home to her pet and the quietness. See you tomorrow.
The people at church are friendly, but even there she feels alone. They talk to each other but not really to her, and she sometimes feels like she’s intruding if she tries to join a conversation. She hears them talk of going places and doing things with each other, but they don’t ask her if she would like to join them. She invites others to come to her house or do something with her, but is turned down or put off. They are too busy. They don’t have time for her. See you next week.
Doesn’t anyone have time to be a true friend, available any time day or night, willing to share and to listen, pray together, and spend time together??? She doesn’t need excuses of being too busy, nor promises to call or visit that are never fulfilled. She needs a close friend–now, not “some day”. She needs one-on-one time with someone. See you around.
She has things to do, too, and sometimes prefers to be alone, but not all the time, so she makes time for them. She returns phone calls. She keeps her promises. She doesn’t forget their needs, and prays for them. Why does it seem that they can’t find time to do the same for her??? One of these days...
Is it something she says or does that keeps them from being a true friend? She’s liked and appreciated for things she does, but they don’t do things for her. She feels like all her relationships are one-sided. They don’t wait for a reply when they ask how are you doing?
They go out with their friends or go home to their families. Where does she go? Who does she have? Who is there to greet her when she gets home besides her pet? Who is there to hold and comfort her when she’s upset or to hold her accountable? Who is there to encourage her when she’s down? Who is there to help her when she can’t do something without another pair of hands? Is anyone there?
She looks out the window when she hears a car, hoping it is someone coming to visit. She stares at the phone, wishing someone would call and chat. She picks up the phone to call them, but all she gets is busy signals and voice mail. She drives to their house but no one is home. She thinks about going out somewhere and doing something. But where would she go alone that’s safe? It’s no fun by yourself.
She keeps busy to avoid the lonely feelings that invade like an illness, and crash in like the waves on the shore. If she keeps busy, it won’t hurt so much–at least for the moment. She tries to read or watch a movie but ends up crying through them because seeing the relationships others have just makes her feel more empty and alone. Do something else...keep your mind occupied.
She knows Jesus is right there and that He feels her loneliness and pain and sadness, but she needs to feel the touch of another person–“Jesus with skin on”. She needs lots of hugs. She says it’s like walking into a dark room–you know He’s there somewhere, but you can’t see or feel Him. Jesus, come close!
She wonders if she tried to share with someone how she feels, would it really make any difference? Maybe they would come close for the moment, but would it continue? Or would they go back to their own busy lives and she to her quiet house? Well, it was nice talking to you, but I must go now...
She wants someone like-minded who can empathize with her and who will also receive what she has to share, someone she can bond with. She wants someone she can discuss things with and receive feedback. She doesn’t want to be out every night or every day, but once in awhile would be refreshing. Where is everybody???
She has a lot to give but no one to give it to. Some of them mean well but the situation may not be right for her. She has to feel comfortable and some situations or people cause her to be uncomfortable so she may back off from them. She thinks through the names of people she knows and wonders who might be a good match for her. There are some who could be but... Do they have time?