I am a broken vessel leaking
Seeking for an ear to hear my fear.
Iím placed in this world,
Told to run with the horses
And Lord knows Iím tired of running.
Iím plucked from those with great knowledge and words of wisdom
to lead a generation whom Iíve never met..
and I rather not regret my step
instead I fade beneath the shade.
Surrounded by shepherds peppered in the word
Told to trust in a god who Iíve never met
to trust in a god who Iíve never talked to
Threat sets in the streets where trust is in the same category as lust.
And nothing and everything is left under the sun
Realize I am not like everyone else.
Iíve heard the stories of those before us
Noah, Job and even Moses
Yet, nothing surprises nor brings satisfaction
To seek attraction to my mind.
I am placed in a nation where I donít belong
Yet Iím supposed to belong and take authority
Despite the mediocrity
Because Christ already lived through this.
Set apart among the set apart.
In a world where everything seems to fall apart
And Iím chosen to impart the love of Christ.
Iím summoned by He who summons demons to flee.
He who summons man to release;
He that is within thee.
Placed within a gift brought with an accountability
Which was spoken by Him not to miss the mark.
To bring forth words
and drag the world with loving cords
and break bondage of their lords
cuz the worldís got too many lords.
Iím told of a loving god
One who doesnít cheat, steal or lie
One who seeks to heal and restore
But I chose to ignore
I keep holding my chains
Locked, kept in restraint
Cuz thatís where Iím safe.
Rather be in with the crowd
Knowing thatís not the way out
Knowing thatís not why He fought
ÖTo be caught in a realm of destruction.
And Iím there.
In a place of destruction
Knowing Christ already came, saved, and proclaimed
To keep me from shame when I raise my hands to praise.
To keep me from hiding behind myself
Knowing Sunday I will run to church
But Saturday night is my time to search.
I sip, smoke and remorse over and over
Found left in the streets,
Knowing of a god who supplies
Even the implied
In Him who I rely
Take advantage and abuse Him
Only for a mere moment.
Iím not like everyone else
Iíve heard of Christ
Iíve been advised and given advise to those who donít truly know me.
Because if youíd known me
Youíd see me
Youíd see my suffering
And the memories thatís left within
Because Iím not who I say I am
Iím already labeled, stamped and mailed out
To those who think Holy are thou.
But deep within I seek out.
I need to be broken before I am brought up
Need to be heard before I can hear
Need to release before I release to those in need
Cuz I am a broken vessel leaking , seeking for He that is within me.