The Lord has brought me into a season of fasting and because He has called me to live a fasted life over the last 9 years I immediately y realized that when I began this particular fast I was met with much more resistance and opposition in the spirit realm and immediately discerned that this would not be fasting as usual. With this realization I began to seek the Lord’s direction in His Word. He led me to Joel 2:12-13 “That is why the LORD says, “Turn to me now, while there is time. Give me your hearts. Come with fasting, weeping, and mourning. Don’t tear your clothing in your grief, but tear your hearts instead.”
And the Lord says, “Announce a time of fasting, call for deep repentance to see the manifestation of the Lord’s promised restoration. Though your wilderness has left you desolate of soul; this is a new level and will require an intensified consecration to keep you pressing forward unhindered. I Am causing you to look deep within your own heart so that I can cleanse you of those hidden impurities lodged in your soul. Yes, I have called you to a season to turn down your plates and submit your bodies to Me and I will sustain you. But there is another fast that I Am calling you to in this season that requires you to submit your souls to me; this is a fast that requires you to lay your hearts bare before Me. And, in the same way that you turn down your plates to bring your bodies under subjection, so you must also break open your hearts before Me; thereby pouring out the toxicity that has grown deep down into your soul because of your last season of trial and testing. It is a solemn time and in this season I Am requiring the pouring out of your heart. Empty yourself; cleanse your soul that I might fill you and refresh you. I Am requiring true repentance that can only come from a heart that will submit to being broken and poured out before Me. I Am the Potter and I can, and I will put your broken heart and battered soul back together again. This cannot just be lip service or self gratifying works of the flesh that causes men to see you and praise you. This must be a cry that is birthed in your soul for this is the season of the soul cry. Let everything that has breathe cry out. Your wailing produces a sound that is heard in heaven and that will evoke a response from My throne. I will awaken you in the middle of the night hours to pray. Watchmen it is time to arise and get back on your watch. As you watch, fast and pray there will be divine realignment, divine release, divine breakthrough, and divine advancement. I Am establishing a standard of righteousness and holiness in My Body NOW. Yes there is a remnant that desires to serve Me in truth and I Am setting you apart for My use. I Am the Lover of your soul and I Am calling you to pour out your heart so that your soul can be made into a dwelling place for My presence.”
Even as I began to pour out my heart before the Lord I found myself moving through a continuous cycle of pleading, desperation and then deep anguish. As my tears ran down I repented to the Lord for the many times that I have imposed my will over His will and; I confessed that I am totally willing to submit and forsake my will in order to apprehend His will for my life. I also used this time to let my Father know how robbed I feel because of the disappointment of not seeing the manifestation of so many promises that I believe were birthed in heaven and conceived in my womb by Him. I travailed and told Him how far out of my reach my dreams had seemed to become. In this moment I poured out my hurts, my disappointments and my hope deferred that has now made me heart sick. I even began feeling a bit selfish and ungrateful in my despair. I confessed that I know of His love for me, I confessed I know of His faithfulness towards me and His relentless pursuit of me. I told Him that I am persuaded that the good work that He has begun in me shall be completed. I could feel the warring of spirit and soul and even as my spirit emanated, “Lord they will be done” my heart was breaking wide open before Him. Then suddenly in the midst of my flood of tears I heard this gentle whisper, “I want to give you the desires of your heart.” And immediately the storm ceased its raging, my heart stood still, and I could feel peace begin to gently usher into my soul. I then said, “Oh my soul, wait upon the Lord for He wants to give you the desires of your heart.” And the Lord said, “Oh My faithful one, continue to delight yourself in Me and I will give you the desires of your heart.”
This article really touched me. infact its like God speaking to me. I think this is the season that i'm in right now. Though most times i stop to wonder why i have to do all these, but i find consolation in the fact that His thoughts towards me are of good, one to give me hope and a future. God bless you.