Iím awake; itís early in the morning yet again. Iím exhausted of waking up in the middle of the night wondering what tomorrow will bring. Will I start a new job? Will my daughter and wife relationship improve? Is this the day of our Lordís return? Time off from work is great. However, man was meant to work. I still have the skill and drive, but the world is not cooperating. Big companies are making record profit with 10's of millions unemployed. I hear and song in my heart that God loves me and is with me. I believe the Lord is my savior I want for nothing. Nevertheless, that nagging desire for a job hounds me all the daylong. Sometimes the Lordís will is only to hang with you during life experiences, letting you know all you needed was Him in the first place.
My feelings are as positive as the physical world allows them. However, bound to spiritual wishes of faith with hope that is not in vain. My current circumstance is synonymous with the writing in Job. Have I done something that offended God? On the other hand, is it just my time to grow deeper in faith? You know God works our faith in time of great loss, or confusion. When life is seemly better why isnít faith tested? Sure, it does, what do you think holds you back from splurging on that bling, boat, or extra car. What stops you from purchasing that handbag or shoes? Working from your heart is Faith not to splurge on the things of this world. It just feels different not shopping for extra stuff than working through relationship issues or being unemployed. The pain is harder when life isnít going in the right direction. I guess it wouldnít be life then, right?