I love you but…
I need so much more.
I need your love to
Reach my inner core.
It hurts so much
When you push me away.
Then I begin to doubt you
And question what you say.
Deep down in my heart
I know you would never mean
To make me feel unloved.
There's much that my eyes have seen.
I’ve watched people be cruel
And I’ve been hurt just for fun
It’s hard to erase my memories,
To undo what has been done.
I’ve been laughed at
And ridiculed for just being me.
I have scars on the surface
And scars no one can see.
I wish I could find a way
To help you understand
That when I beat myself up
It’s not part of my plan.
It starts because
I feel so uncertain.
I need your tender hands
To part my mind’s dark curtain.
I hunger for your touch,
Just a simple caress
Reassurance in words
That you don’t love me less.
I’ve doubted myself
For such a long time.
It’s hard to believe
That you are really mine.
You’re gentle and patient
You never give up on me.
You know when to stop
And let me be just me.
Please just show me
What I mean to you.
I’ll look deep in your eyes
To see if your love is true.
I love you, but…
There is no longer a pause.
I love you unquestionably.
I love you because…
Because I believe in faith
We’re together for a reason.
I know our love will last
Through the roughest season.
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I just read this and want to say I can really relate to it. Been in that valley called "BUT" many a time. The Lord has delivered me from much discouragement and self abuse. Only HE could have done it. I love how you end this by bringing us back to faith.
Your transparent words are ones many can relate to. (How's that for ending with a preposition?) Thank God for a loving Father who loves us just the way we are but too much to leave us that way!
It was so kind of you to read my "Confession" and leave such an encouraging comment, that I had to come calling and get a bit acquainted! I see you're a new addition to FaithWriters, too. I hope you're having fun finding your way around here.
You have the heart of a poet, I see. You know how to express emotion that resonates with the reader. Plus that you know a secret: leaving your reader wanting more! God bless you, Shann! I hope to read more from you.
This is a beautiful touching poem. I loved the vulnerability and honesty in it.
There's some beautiful imagery: "mind's dark curtain" "scars on the surface and scars no one can see."
To me the loveliest part of it is the progression - doubt in the 1st verse turns to certain faith in the last 2 verses.
You defintely have a talent for connecting the reader with you as an author. Your heartfelt expressions are something I believe every reader can identify with, therefore making this poem as much for them as for you. Well done!
