Tempted, so tempted.
I looked the devil in the eye,
I bought the story ...almost.
I made some compromises from who I have become,
Venturing back a few steps to who I used to be.
Though some of who I used to be is still good,
The rest is why I fell on my face at the cross in the first place, all the shame, the insecurities, the confusion.
But then, I learned that Christ died for me, and when He did, He became my Lord. I gave him the deed to my heart. It is no longer acceptable to make selfish, me-first decisions to go where I want and do what I want, with whom I want. Now, everything must be father filtered. God has the right to be in charge of my life, not just because He made me, and knows me the best of anyone in the universe, but because Calvary gave him that right.
Father, I surrendered to you then, and I surrender now. I relinquish lordship afresh to you. Lord, come and guide my heart, be a lamp unto my feet. Illuminate the path that I may follow you. Move the obstacles that obscure my vision of you. Extend your hand through the fog of feelings that I may firmly grasp it once again.
And help me to remember: I am my Belovedís and He is mine.