I decided to go on a long search today
In retrospect, to try and find my own self.
And, I was surprised to discover
That I did not know myself at all.
I had forgotten to assimilate
The joys of spring and summer
As I had not budged further than winter .
I missed the clues that life
Kept revealing to me.
Even though my eyes were wide open
They had failed to discern what could be plainly seen.
I refused to let my memories be a thing of the past.
They had to be the joys of the present
And come alive for me.
Time had to return back for me.
I tried to make sense
Of my sub conscious thoughts
That could awaken me
From a deep slumber.
I struggled to recognize myself
As I marked the dividing line
Between dreams and reality.
Though, the dreams made more sense
And gave me a reason to live
Thus, becoming a better reality.
As I had trudged along life’s road
I realized that my heart had become,
A special dwelling place
For all those who mattered most to me.
So, at the end of my search
I could only conclude that
In order to understand myself,
I had to first behold
A reflection of my emotions
In the eyes of those who loved me.
Maria Franco
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