Just looking through the shelves at local bookstore
Sometimes it is just the book title that beckons or repels me,
Or sends me on a thought journey.
Tonight it was a book by a noted author about “Picking the right mate, or fixing the one you’ve got”. It was the “fixing” part that stopped me.
I don’t want someone to “fix” me. No one but God, His Holy Spirit and I in corroboration can do that, if I indeed need fixing, but HE is the only true judge of that.
I can never be right, according to the world’s standards.
I have not measured up EVER in my life.
Not tall enough, smart enough,
Not fast enough on the track team – came in second no matter what.
Not slick enough on the basketball court,
Not graceful enough on the dance floor,
I am not so many things that the world holds up as their stencil.
The only thing I can be is myself – and that is a lifetime pursuit to find who God intended me to be. Full time job, for sure.
Shakespeare said “To thine own self be true”. I think I would expand it to say “To thine own Lord be true” for surely I have had times I have been untrue with myself, and countless more with the Lord. But I surrender afresh daily asking for and receiving His forgiveness. Then, he takes me again to His Potter’s wheel and molds me and shapes me. He puts me in the kiln of the Refiner’s Fire, so that I may be perfected and complete, lacking in nothing as I lean on Him.