By: Lauren Akqulian
Confusion, undeniable confusion. What do I do? Who do I turn to? What is it that Iím supposed to be when I grow up? These questions plague me and all the while life is expecting me to continue in its race as usual. How am I to get up every morning and proceed with the dayís expectations of me when I donít know what direction Iím to go? Itís these mysteries in which God sheds His light, provides guidance, and reminds us just how much He is in control of.
Can we begin to fathom Godís power? Can we begin to understand that He is in control of everything, that He knows ALL? Itís with our simple faith that He shows us we are never alone. Questions will arise as to where do I belong in this life. This is not an unusual question. For hundreds of years philosophers, authors, preachers, and leaders have asked the same thing but we continue to ask ourselves this one question, what is the meaning of life. We continue to ponder, wonder, and pray for the answer. That we are to become like Christ, we are to be a light for Him is the usual answer but this doesnít answer how we should fill our minutes, hours, and days to accomplish this task.
Sure, weíre all busy working, doing errands, taking care of family members, friends. We fill our time with taking care of others more often then we take care of ourselves. We fill our time watching television, reading self help books, exercising and doing the things to better our lives in the way society has told us we should. These things are great but they only distract us from the emptiness of the unanswered question.
God will show Himself in such a personal way itís scary. He will answer these questions if weíre quiet and we are listening to Him. He will speak to us through those friends and family members that we busy ourselves taking care of but if we arenít listening and weíre not asking we wonít hear His answer. Itís amazing how weíll receive this insight and just as quickly as it comes to us it leaves our conscious thought. How do we keep the answers that God gives us? How do we keep that ahah moment when the heavenís open up and His light shines down on our confusion? Is this knowledge only to be shared and maintained by those philosophers, authors, and leaders of the past? Can everyday people hear from God and retain what is told to them?
My promise is that God will break through the loudest of ďHMPHíSĒ and if we keep asking heíll keep answering until we get it. Until we know that we know that we know what is meant for our lives, what His goal and purpose is for each minute of each hour of each of our numbered days. He knows we can be slow learners, we can be stupid and dense but He still loves us, guides our steps, and answers those hard questions, no matter how many times we have to ask!