The reason I chose this subject is because it is true and its up to you if you want it. I can say God has delivered me from something that had been holding me down for quite a while! I want to share this with you because it may help you out of a situation you may be in now. I was the type of person that if I feel ur doing me wrong or you act a certain way towards me, I won't have much to do wit you-period. No ifs, ands or buts about it. That kind of attitude is not good especially when you're claiming salvation! So anyway, at the time a few people was getting on my nerves with how they were acting to me. Instead of me addressing it, I brushed it off and kept it moving. I half way spoke to them, sometimes I didn't bother to speak cause I really won't pressed about it. Then it came to a point that when church let out, I wouldn't walk their way! Didn't care whatsoever! One thing about church folk, they notice stuff! I had different ones say stuff to me, to try and figure out whats wrong. I would say nothing and kept walking. It even came to a point that I guess it made them mad and we had one-on-one meetings to try and work it out or say whats wrong. I would say nothing, or just say what I had to say and leave it. Then we would think its ok, but it would go back to the same thing. Salvation is not about being bound! Thats of the devil! I knew this, but didn't care. The word would come forth with such fury, but all I did was get in the prayer line and get prayed for. Then sit down and thought I was fine. I wasn't though. One night a week ago, I talked with a friend. She told me about the convention at her church and how a message came forth about being your own hinderance. I listened. Then she was saying how God can't bless you because your blocking yourself from receiving them. I listened. I told her what was going on (nothin new, we had talked about it before). She told me to pray, search myself, and that holding on to harsh feelings like that is not gonna make it better but its gonna eat you up! I started to cry a little, we ended that conversation by me saying I was gonna pray and get this nipped in the bud! She told me to call her if I needed her and that was that. I went to my room that night, still determined to end all of this cause I wanted what God had for me! I opened my bible that night, no particular book or scripture in mind, read Psalms 116. I felt I needed something else. I read Ecclesiastes chapters 2 to I think around the 7th or 8th chapter. I got so much out of those chapters, that I knew God had spoke to me and gave me instruction on what I needed to do! I prayed, shed some tears, and went to sleep. That happened early sunday morning. When I woke up, I got ready for church and kept going over what I read early that morning. I didn't want to put it off another day, week or month-I wanted to get it straight that day! To make a long story short, I ended up getting out alot of stuff that was bothering me with them and since that day God has delivered me from that!! He is so good! I could feel weights being lifted and let me tell you, when I got to church I thought about not doing it! The devil is a lie-I sucked it up and did what I had to do! Thats what is needed today. Sometimes we need to decrease so God can increase! You can't live holy and clean with grudges, attitudes, nasty looks, talking about one another etc., and say that you're free? NOOOOOOOO! God is not in you and salvation is not like that! I don't care how you feel about it or make it to be, you not right! God can come back right now and you won't make it! Isn't that scary? Sure you can repent, but you haven't cleared it with your brother or sister-situation is still there and God ain't hearin you! I still have a ways to go to be like Christ, but I have learned my lesson on being your own hinderance. He wants to remove the situation you may be in today, but you have to do your part. He is ready to bring you out and will deliver you!!!