16 I pray that out of your glorious riches you will strengthen me with power through your Spirit in my inner being,
17 so that Christ may dwell in my heart through faith. And I pray that I, being rooted and established in love,
18 may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.
Becoming rooted and grounded in Godís love is one of the most important ingredients in a believer's life. Although, I had been a Christian for years, I couldn't understand the emotional turmoil that I continued to experience after becoming born again. I was renewing my mind, praying, praising, worshipping, seeking counseling - everything within my ability to do -and the emotional distress wouldn't dissolve. I cried out to God from the depths of my heart, but I could not hear Him speaking through the clutter in my mind.
It wasn't until when the Lord showed me that although I knew His word, I didn't have a foundation of His love to stand upon. Even though I was renewing my mind, the word was not penetrating deep into my heart as it should because the foundation of love wasn't there.
After He revealed this to me, I searched the bible, found scriptures on love and began applying them personally to my life. When I first began, the Lord gave me a vision of the way in which I saw myself. I had a deformed face, which was scarred on one side and the side of my mouth was crooked. The scarred side of my face appeared as if it had been burned in a fire and there was a bleeding cut diagonally across the center of the burns. I felt unloved and unwanted because of this deformity. However, in the midst of the scars, I could see a salve like shiny substance on my face.
Years of childhood abuse had left me traumatized and resulted in an on-going battle with addiction. Feelings of unworthiness smothered me. Shame left me paralyzed to receive God's great love for me.
God gently lifted me up out of the depths of despair and said, "Come here, I love you just as you are and I want you to see yourself as I see you." As I continued to read and meditate on those precious love scriptures, the turmoil in my mind began to cease, and the peace of God began to transcend.
The truth of God's love for me began penetrating into the deep places of my heart, healing me, and I found myself staring at a beautiful young woman as I looked in the mirror.
Thank you for sharing this. Too many look at only the way one looks physically, but GOD sees us as we really are. I can understand how you "felt" and I am so glad God revealed HIS love to you. All of us need a deeper revelation of God's love. GOD BLESS YOU!