POEM FOR MY PASS AWAY SISTER
She died in a car accident.Her name is Ding.I was right in front of her when it happened So yea I still remember everyDing.Her ,smile,her cries,even little thing telling lies,dam her CRIES!!. she had beutiful eyes.but with both her eye close i can still see her beauty.i dont know if that has ever been heard or said before.BUt remmeber having one dollar just enjoying walking to the public store.little memories like that keeps my heart clean when am i sad.we had a father figure but he never spoke to us it was like having an absence of a dad.it has been 22 years but i still get tears .when i look at her picture. A man should not cry but just for that precious little girl I cry two rivers,one for each eye.She died when she was only six and i have only one pic.because of her i began my jouney through life with hope she was my first inspiration if words will not be misundertood. she was even my love.although at that time. I didnt have jesus as my motivation.I was a buddist but god came into my life and broke that chain.when i was baptized in 2004 it felt like having new life after a rain.I wanted to make her proud so we both can see each other up in heaven.it will be like 'wow you grown so beautifully.Although i had to miss her grow..shell say 'i didnt know you would get so handsome and wow your tall.then ill say no it's just the 2 inche timberlands i bought at the mall.we'll both laught then crie ,tears of sadness,happyness for emotion that has been kept to long buried inside.Untill then rest in peace i will see you there.remeber how we would just sit and look at the full moon well i still think of you and still do that Ding. Recalling her smiles, her eyes, the way she speak I realized even before she went to heaven she already had open wings. She has morals, a kind hurt heart, brilliant mind, the heart of Jesus. She's was everyDING. Even today you're the reason I get up for and stay up in the dark. You stay on my mind at night but you were my light you are my spark. If you were here beside me. I'd give you hugs and a kisses, But since you're with Jesus. I'll tenderly reminisce it. Some folks may need to write. others need a final good by. I can't do much but cry. Remember that song mom use to sing to us, our favorite lullaby. We'll I've written the song for you because I know you'll like it a little better with a little more style. My nature could cause me to grieve away for hours. I could run to the cemetery with bundles of flowers. You're the reason I get up, brush my teeth, and use the showers.I know it seems as though I cant function without thoughts of you on my mind. But I think of you often with Jesus so thats why I go to church and sing Let Shine Let Shine Let It Shine. You've brighten my day in your own special way, Like a rainbow that brightens the sky. I wish we could hold you tight. Even since you left itís been just me, myself ,and I.Baby girl I know you miss me let out its al righ. I miss you too every day and especially when the moon is full. But down here I have faith in Him Ill see you soon I'm on roll. typing my emotion on paper,on my computers.many typos.Just letting it out slow.So I write this poem to you to express my feelings in better words as get on my knees I pray so it can be better heard.
This is what I have to tell you. Trying to see image of you in the sky and wondering how it will be But the holy ghost is in my makes me think I can see. Loud noise interrupting my concentration from the sea Rain drop pours clouding and blurred my eyes, now Fake tear drops rolling down my neck and my side I cant see you now though I know your up in the sky ,now Warms voices of angels whisperring in my ears about the event to come and how many will die Blaming you for not seeing the images my mind seems to create is a disgrace Its not your fault Iím on pills and seems like my mind isnt clear unable to see your design,your figure,your trace. Iíll give you one thing to you and thatís my heart, mind, and a soul that cantít be separate apart The rolls for myself should be express freely so set me out from this world Release me from the chain Iím abinded by sin to this idea of a soul that has been curse Being able to hear you shouldnít be considered that but maybe a blessing But the more I know the lest happy I am with depression Youíre my motivation and thatís your role Although I cant see you I still love you and thank God Itís a long distance relationship we have with only pictures to see you by But I cant see you, let the rain pours down my eye Maybe if I was blind Iíll see you in my dreams maybe then I see, and finally realized That you were always here by me just hidden in the inside I should put my self to sleep but that would be cheating Memories of Ding in my dreams causing tear drops blinding my eyes So why look up high when I can dream, and stil be able to see her by your side, God
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