Psalm 42 was the end of the sixth cycle of seven but the vision of heaven that it presented was in hope and searching. We saw our doubt in action in Psalm 43 and in our thoughts in Psalm 44. It has been like a desert crossing with few words of encouragement, only the silence of doubt. Like boot camp we have been torn down so that there is nothing left but hope and it is becoming a routine to continue on, regardless. Maybe we finally can begin to trust the path itself.
Whether yesterday showed glory or hardship hardly matters. Today’s challenges come and we must do the best we can with the strength we are given to face them. Now we are becoming accustomed to the fact of the path, our own path through our own life, as we follow it through the days. We have trusted it, and it has shown itself to be true. The path will lead us ever on, it goes to no bad end for those who seek the Truth.
What we do hardly changes at first once we begin to have trust. A few bad habits get left behind, a few new interests arise just like they always do. It is only a subtle difference, but it is enormous in implication. We can begin to have real direction in our lives. Spans of years go by and the changes become more pronounced because we are going in a direction of our own choosing instead of random chance, or worse.
Then one day, if we live long enough, the sun will come up in a time when it no longer matters what we are faced with, it matters only that we face it. It matters that we persevere and it matters that we have a face to face it with. After our time of doubt a vision is given to us. We are finally ready to see ourselves in a mirror lit with a higher light, the reflection of a spirit that stands in the place we are meant to be.
45. The King and Queen that I Would Be
I have found the King and He resides in my heart. I will speak of what I have learned of Him as if He were someone else but my tongue belongs to Him.
“You are fairer than the children of men, grace is poured into your lips and You are blessed by God forever. You wield great power, O mighty one, with glory and majesty. Your honor goes out before You because You uphold truth and meekness and righteousness without fear. Your right hand teaches hard lessons. Your arrows are sharp in the hearts of your enemies and they are taken down.”
"God’s throne is forever and his scepter is righteous. My king, You love what is right and hate wickedness, therefore God has anointed You with a crown, the crown of gladness above all others. All your clothes shall be perfumed and richly adorned. Kings’ daughters will attend to You and You shall take to wife the very best."
Listen and consider, O my daughter.
“Forget who you’ve known and the people you come from. The King shall greatly desire your beauty and he is your lord, you should learn to worship him. He has his choice of the richest of companions but he desires only the one who is glorious on the inside, though her clothes were made of gold. The King’s choice will be arrayed in her own handiwork and her companions will be pure and uncompromised. She will gladly become subject to the King. She will no longer serve her father, but instead will produce children who will be made princes of all the earth.”
Do these things and you will be remembered throughout all the generations; your people will praise your name forever.
After the drought of hardship there comes a vision of renewal. Because we refuse to give up we are given a vision of an angelic form. We are not this being yet but it is a model of who we are meant to become. We are given a goal to achieve and because we see it within ourselves it becomes a personal relationship that grows over time. It does not come because of our merit or for anything we have done, it is a gift for all to find if they will look.
This is the one who can stand forever in the presence of the Lord. The lesson is given in two parts, male and female. The annointed and crowned king who takes to wife the very best, and the beautiful daughter who leaves her family and is chosen to become queen and produce princes. Men and women can find themselves in this emotional picture of glory and majesty but we can each find the totality of ourselves as well.
Submission to the Lord is required of women and men alike just as hard lessons and sharp arrows are expected of both men and women. We must all learn all the lessons before we move on because the spiritual nature of heaven is not like the physical nature of the earth (Mt.22:28-32). Our physical bodies are no different than the other animals but our spiritual selves are not split in sexual halves, they are meant to be whole (Mk.10:6-9). Our desires are produced by the body and are neither good nor bad of themselves, we all must eat and sleep. Transferring desires to a spiritual quest is our task: those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be filled (Mt.5:6).