Each mountain top experience is a different one, with each one God has a different Word to speak, a different assignment, a different manifestation, and a different impartation.
Last year He manifested His presence by literally caressing us and embracing us. He gave us a glow to bring back that showed His glory and presence was all around us, to effect change in those who desired His presence.
This year, again; it was a different experience, my desire was to get away to be alone with him. I was not concerned with being around anybody else, but just being alone with Him to hear Him and speak to Him without any distractions. My desire was to get to that mountain top above the daily hustle and bustle of work, family, church, and the rest.
During our first night session, we were told to not look at circumstances with the natural eye, we were told that we are His sheep, and that a stranger’s voice we should not follow, we were told to focus on Him. We were told to trust and obey, fully obey, not partially. Full obedience is total obedience. We were told to focus on Him, “if thy eye be single focus on Me” and we were told to watch and pray and to forgive and love.
We were instructed to go to our rooms and make a list from childhood to present, of baggage that we wanted to get rid of.
It was on my second day at six o’clock in the morning on Chapel Hill, when the Lord spoke to me and said, “You will no longer allow the enemy to cause you to walk in fear of speaking in front of other people. A fire I have placed in you, I have placed a fire upon your tongue and you will speak what I tell you to speak”. As I began to weep, one of my sisters in Christ came over to me and she started to pray what God told her to speak over me, she then started walking around me in a circle and as she walked, the Lord told me, “Seven times they marched around Jericho, and on the seventh time, the walls came down. So I am bringing down those walls that were hindering you. No more, no more, you will walk in the authority and power that I have given you, you will go forth in my calling and purpose for you I will strengthen you for the call, I give you My peace because you seek it, desire it, love it, and obtain it.”
I did not realize the fear that I had been holding onto and how it was affecting my call from the Lord both in ministry and in the secular arena, fear of what people were going to think, what I would look or sound like, doubt and unbelief, fear of being rejected, even at times regretting the call. I would hear the enemy telling me that I was not meeting the standards of being a minister; I carried hurt and resentment towards things that happened to me in the past and things that I was not able to accomplish in the past.
That night, we were instructed to walk in boldness and confidence, to say what the Lord is saying. One of the scriptures that personally confirmed what the Lord was speaking to me was Jeremiah 1: 6-10, “The word of the LORD came to me, saying, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child."
But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD.
Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."
We were instructed to get rid of the poisons of the past and to break camp and move. We were instructed that in order to move in the calling of God that we would have to allow God to disconnect us from things and people who are hindering our calling and who will contaminate our anointing, we were instructed to be wise and to stay in the Word. We learned that perfect love casts out fear and that God has not given us a spirit of fear.
For me personally, as the word of God went forth over me, I was told to go forth in the boldness and confidence that God has given me, that others have been talking about me saying that I’m not a minister, but that the Lord is going to shut their mouths. I was told that a birthing in the spirit is about to take place, just trust and obey.
God had already instructed me and a friend to consecrate a fast prior to the conference, we started with one week, but as it stands, we will fast until He says stop. During this time of fasting the Lord reminded me of Moses and how he took Moses to the mountain top and showed him the promise that He had for him, yet there was one thing that Moses had to do, obey, but instead of Moses going back to the wilderness and doing what the Lord had told him, he chose to lose patience with the Israelites and disobey by striking the rock, therefore causing him to miss the blessing. I’m not going to miss my blessing due to disobedience. I want to be like Joshua and enter the promise land.
Sometimes the enemy will have you thinking that you are free in certain areas, but I say to you, daily check yourself and ask the Lord to search your heart, spirit, soul, and body. I thought that I was already “Out The Box” and transformed, but God showed me that He had not yet finished because I was still holding onto the box!
Initially I did not want to be around with a group of women, but I enjoyed the fellowship and hearing the various testimonies that we shared.
I especially enjoyed my roommate, we had not seen each other in a few months and as we fellowshipped and ministered to each other, we found out that we had some of the same issues in life that we needed to shed, from low self esteem to being wounded both from church family and people. We were reconnected and I praise God for her. I also appreciated the liberty of the Women of God that ministered to us, they were not ashamed to be upfront and personal in sharing their own personal testimonies.
I have gone back to my First Love which is the Lord, and I have fallen in love with Him again, this will help me love myself and love others as He loves them. I place no one before Him because He places no one before me. He is the center of my life and if anyone wants and loves Him, they will love me and others the same.
Our main theme of this conference was, “Waiting On The Lord”, Isaiah 40:31
But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint."
Copyrighted 2009 by Minister Sheila M. Herron
__Living Epistle Ministries
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