I'm sorry Becky. After you texted me I looked up some things and they said Labs have problems with hip and knee joints so I wondered if maybe that was it. I think it's weird that big dogs have a shorter lifespan than small dogs, but from what I read 10 to 12 years is the normal for those dogs, so I could say all the usual things like at least you had nine good years with him, but that doesn't help, but a good cry and cuddle does. Since I can't cuddle with you scoop up your Yorkie and tell her (or is it him?) how much you love him and he'll help ease the pain some. I know it's hard, our 16 yo dog died when I was in the hospital. Poor Lyd was so upset, I felt terrible that I couldn't be there for her so we both cried together over the phone. If I hadn't known that Chris just left me and would be home in a few minutes I would have yanked out the IVs and started walking the 6 miles in my nightgown...probably would have been picked up by the cops and taken to the psych wing, but that might be what I need...
I'm not sure why, but I feel so down lately. Usually at the very least I pop in here every day even if I don't speak, but lately I don't even have the energy to do that. I need to finish editing this MS. It's turned out to be a very complicated matter, the lady is really nice she just doesn't understand the meaning of intellectual property. It's basically turned from a simple editing job (I was the third editor so it was supposed to be a breeze just triple checking.) Not only is it a total mess, but I have to double-check everything and if it is from another place rewrite it in original words. It was suggested that she use dialog and use quotation marks instead of writing: I told my husband to go downstairs. Well she listened and this is how she fixed it: I "told" my husband...
I'm not complaining because I am so grateful for the job. I really enjoy editing and getting some money is a huge boost! The people I've worked with are super sweet and have been really responsive to my suggestions. I know they are looking for a couple of more people who would be willing to be detailed oriented, and go the extra mile. It doesn't pay a lot, but if anyone likes doing proofreading and knows the rules or has access and is willing to double-check them, I'm sure the company would be interested in using you. I know Amy is not up for it right now. They also need layout and people to do formatting and marketing. It's all work from home stuff, but it's a nice start into the world of writing.
Sorry Leah about the anxiety. I can totally relate. In 9th grade, I was supposed to stay after for talking in class (really can you believe that?) and when I started to leave the teacher said something to me. My friends were all about so I acted tough and responded using words I can't repeat here and am horrified that it even came out of my stupid teen mouth. Of course, not only was it Friday, but Memorial Day weekend so I was tortured from the second the words left my mouth until the teacher's phone buzzed in science class asking me to go to the principal's. Of course, everyone knew what I did and the kids all oooohhhhheddddd.
I know not the same thing, but thought it might distract you for a minute or two. Maybe it's something quite inconsequential and not at all something you did wrong. Could it even be something like checking to see how you are coping since your co-worker died?
We had one doctor who used to be a tyrant. She was known for going after new nurses. It's funny because there were only two OB docs in town and before I worked there I liked Dr. R way more than Dr. G., but after a few minutes of working there that changed. Eventually Dr. G became Q's godmother and when Mom's aneurysm ruptured she came into my hospital room (I was a patient coincidentally with my PC doc) and she held me for 20-30 minutes well I sobbed. She never said a word, just held and rocked me gently.
But when I first started, we had an emergency and I was fresh out of nursing school. I knew I should be doing something but had no idea what. I had very little actual patient experience. Dr. R snapped at me and I responded. "Remember, I'm new and I don't know what to do but if you tell me. I'll do it."
I think she must have respected that because she never came after me too much. When she did I would stand up to her. She isn't taller than 5 ft but boy could she be scary when she got mad! So know I'm thinking of you and praying that all goes well.
I can't believe Amy has turned into a Whoivan (I asked my hubby I've never heard of the word) I knew what a Tardis was (only because Lyd bought a tree ornament for Chris and it's right next to me) I asked him what Idris was and he didn't know!!! I had to google that! I told him I was going to shame him in front of you all. Okay I'm either going to go back to bed or work on editing. Not sure which but don't worry I'll let you all know! Maybe