True Confessions

[Heartsinger]

I publicly whined.
I let the need for approval have a voice in my head which led to...
I almost quit...

Almost a year ago I suffered a sudden tragic traumatic loss. I struggled to come back...to write, but only grief came through so I stayed away. January came. I determined to write. I became caught up in placing...recognition...it didn't come. I almost quit because of the need for approval

We all need recognition - it's basic to all humanity. However, if it's more important than the love, acceptance, and special place we have in Papa God, it soon becomes putrid, poisoning the very heart and soul.

I reached out in a private message and then I did something practical.

I printed off and read the new judging criteria.
But more importantly I let go of the need for approval AND I decided to do the work to craft...not just express.

I know I won't always hit a home run and it doesn't matter.

But I will continue to write for an audience of ONE.

And I'll try and be a giving member of this amazing community.

Bless you all.

Heartsinger
Terry R A Eissfeldt

[gracelikerain]

Very inspiring! I too get caught up in the need for "winning" and "approval". When we do what we do for the glory of God, then we have all the approval we need. We've already won, haven't we?

I'm so glad you haven't quit! Keep going!!

[Heartsinger]

Hey Grace....like.....rain...

Thanks for the reply. I have a suspicion that this 'need for approval' may be a bit of an elephant in the room here.

Because it is a common - and healthy need - we can all justify it.

But - when left to gain an unbalanced voice - one that turns needy, whiny, self-pitying - then we must return to Papa and here His voice of approval that comes just because we are His - no performance required.

Have a great day!

[RedBaron]

Thanks.

[pheeweed]

No one's ignoring that elephant in my house. The Lord and I discuss it every time I write anything. Also every time I have an idea. It goes like this:

I have a great idea. Maybe I'll get published. Then I can post it on FW and tell all my family and friends on FB. They'll all be impressed.

No child, that's not why I gave you the gift. Use it for My glory, not yours.

Yes, Lord. I'm sorry.

And then it starts all over again.

[Heartsinger]

Phee! You've been in my head!

or.... I was right.....LOL

HUMAN!!!!!!!!

It's so disarming to the enemy when we expose such things to the LIGHT

Blessings

Heartsinger

[lish1936]

I know I won't always hit a home run and it doesn't matter.

But I will continue to write for an audience of ONE.

And I'll try and be a giving member of this amazing community.

Thanks, Terry. I guess we writers share a common struggle. Congratulations on this week's "home run." You hit it out of the park; especially for me, since I'm in reading through Deuteronomy.

Lillian