JesusPuppy wrote:The new ruling, as he explained it, is for "Companies" to provide low cost insurance for their employees, or be fined, not the individual employee.
Yeah, and that's a real hardship on the small businesses, which is the foundation of our country. Many of them may have to go out of business because they can't survive. We paid a large portion of our employee's insurance but wouldn't be able to manage more. Plus, some of our employees chose to opt out of the insurance because they couldn't afford their end of the premiums. Now they won't have that option.
I used to get horrible nightmares all the time when I was little, and any book or movie that was the slightest bit scary would set it off. I remember being scared of the dark, but also scared that if I had a nightlight then I'd wake up and see the glow and think it was a fire.
I was stuck. But once I got older it's very rare for me to have bad dreams, and even if they are bad, they rarely have that horrible panic feeling to them.
I did have some bad dreams after the theater shooting. There was another shooting today in a mall in Portland. My friend Jenna was there and had planned to be in the mall at that time, but was running behind schedule and they were still next door eating lunch when they saw everyone running out screaming. So glad she wasn't in there. The last update I heard, two people were killed and one in critical condition, and seven injured, and the gunman dead--some witnesses say he killed himself, though the police aren't saying yet. It could have been so much worse, though. He fired about 60 shots and then the automatic weapon jammed, and it stopped him.
I've been missing in action here again, primarily because of my sleep. I'm needing four hour naps in the middle of the day, and even then only forcing myself out of bed because I have things to do. I saw a sleep specialist last week and was very thankful to find someone who actually listened and cared, and was interested in more than just apnea, which has been ruled out. So far I've been seeing insomnia people because I wake often, and I used to have trouble sleeping. But he said since I fall back asleep right away and my sleep study showed I'm going into deep sleep right away and getting plenty, that it's a hypersomnia issue, which is a completely different ballpark.
So he scheduled some blood tests and then set up another sleep study. This one will be another night one with even more tests done (I don't know how you can trump the bajillion wires and probes I had last time!) but then I'll stay the whole next day too, and have my brainwaves monitored while I'm awake and then during naps. They are looking for narcolepsy or another thing I forget the name of. I'm pleased that Medicare will cover the costs of the study completely, so hopefully it'll turn out that all the years of work to get on it will pay off.
I've also been losing weight, though, and am lower than I have been in a long time, and the sleep issue seems to be getting increasingly worse, so I'm wondering if it could be something different than narcolepsy, like adrenal failure or something... I guess that's a common risk with my disease. I have a phone appointment with my specialist back east on Thursday, so between that and the sleep study, hopefully they'll figure it out.
I'm ready to get my days back. So frustrating to waste so much of it sleeping, especially when I wake up still exhausted. But if I just try to push through and not nap, then I start falling asleep in the middle of things, and not being able to stay alert while I'm driving, so I have to give in and sleep.
I did make/let myself stay up last night to rework a scene to bring to critique group. I haven't written since doing that for last month. But I was more pleased with the result this time. When Randy Ingermanson's first comments were just about misspelling, I knew I'd done well. But then he said he thought that was the strongest piece of writing I'd ever brought in, and given that he's given me pretty high praise for some things in the past, that's pretty encouraging. Maybe I can actually do this novel thing. I know I can write short stories, but the verdict is still out on novels.
But between the sleep problem and spending a lot of time with Andy, I don't have much left for writing. But today was my last day of work for almost a month, so maybe that will help some.