Oh, I haven't been around much...been busy, but breezing on through tonight before a take a nap before reporting to my job.
This is exactly what I have been wrestling just recently at my job. As I told the Lord, I feel unopen to continue bearing my cross there right now. I want to pass over this cup, and I want to say like Jesus, "Nevertheless, not my will but yours," but in honesty I feel closed to it now, but want to be willing to be changed.
So, been praying...and with more time I will be looking into this more thoroughly as I just quickly skimmed through some comments due to time restraints.
For now I'll just say this. One time many years ago when I prayed to the Lord to hear me (as at the time I thought He may not be willing to because of the way I was living which I felt wasn't pleasing to Him), He answered me...and He let me feel his great joy and pleasure that I had turned to Him to communicate with Him. Said He never turned his back on me, but I on Him (wasn't a reprimand, but just info for my knowledge). He said no matter where I was and what I was doing He would always be there...and don't remember if He actually said this next thing but if memory serves me correct, I felt like it was a "Live your life, just say in touch with me. I love it when you do that."
So, I believe we can do wrong, and I am not looking to make excuses for my poor choices, but He gives me room to make those choices and awaits for me to communicate with Him and be made willing to follow Him anywhere. There is grace for the progressive journey, not grace to be used as an excuse, but grace.
Pa pa is always waiting with open arms, and to clean up the mess.
I do believe, as I seen through my skimming, that these statements do need to be taken into context. Throughout the years I've heard a sermon or teaching packed up in one or two liners and if they aren't viewed within the larger picture of God's heart in Christ and his purposes, they will be misused.
For instance, "It's not about me," is a wonderful truth, but a good deal of times when I have heard that one liner used, I've felt like an employee in some production plant that is just like a number. Like I am not important. Well, I do count, and in my personal relationship with God it is about Him and me and I am important to Him, with my quirks and all, but yes, in the larger scheme of things, it isn't about me, but about Him and what He is doing to bring about his will on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Hi everyone. Miss you all, been busy but hope to be back in to read all the fine wisdom that comes from this place...there's probably something in here for me.
Love in Him,