Thanks for your prayers for the auction. We had a beautiful day, about twice the people we expected, and my mom got more than she expected. We figure I knew more people there than anyone. I kind of played hostess for the day, and I enjoyed that. On Sunday night, I felt that Monday would be a time to honor my dad, and that helped.
There were times it really got to me. I cried during the auction more than anyone. My mom managed much better, but it hit her harder this morning. She is very pleased with the auction itself, though, and she is relieved that it's over.
We left the house for the last time last night. That was hard, too. I couldn't sleep last night because I just kept crying. So I only slept for two hours. And I've cried buckets and buckets of tears today. Some of it is grief, but I feel that a lot of it is the release of the tension leading up to yesterday. There's just been a LOT going on and then the family tension has been so thick on top of it. I've been on emotional overload for about five months now.
My mom went back with my sister today and will stay with her for a week. I'm so glad she's going, but I'll miss her, and I can't remember the last time we went this long without talking to each other. Sure, either of us can call. But I do think it's important that she get a break from things here. And I also really need some time to myself. I haven't had a break since my dad died, and all of my siblings have. Not a break from my mom, of course, but just some days that I'm not involved in the overwhelming amount of things we've been doing. And even if we weren't actively doing things, we've talked every day, so we've been discussing things constantly because there's just been so much.
I hope to work on some things for my business this week. And I really want/need to spend some time journaling.
Again, thanks for your prayers. It was a nice day in so many ways.