I'd like to answer. Everything is amiss with me. I'm a mess, but somehow the Lord keeps being a personal God that reaches out in personal ways to touch me. I remember in my early 30's shopping for a new car. I was always sensible about cars . . . nothing fancy. Well, had a really dangerous job and one day when the police scolded me again about my lack of sense (did things that could kill me at work), and how this last incident could have killed me if I would have been hit at the temple, I said to myself, 'Self, you do have a dangerous job and one day you may die doing it (although I wasn't worried as I knew where I was going). You should at least get yourself a car you would really like and enjoy.' So, then I prayed, "God, I don't even know if it is worth praying over, like should I be praying over this . . ." And I proceeded to tell him how I wanted a nice car and stuff. I was looking for a jeep or convertible because I wanted to be able to put the top down. Then, a week into my shopping a test drove a Camaro. It was nice, but not a convertible . . . I mean I couldn't afford that, a Camaro convertible. So, decided if I couldn't find a jeep or convertible I could afford, I would consider a Camaro. Wow if not shortly after that I walked into a dealership and saw the most beautiful car I ever seen. Burgundy Camaro Convertible . . . oh, but could I afford that beauty???
I was shocked when I saw the price. It was cheap. I thought, 'This is either the Lord or maybe there is something wrong with it, but I think it is the Lord.
So, even though it was cheap, I tried to bargain it down. They said no, then they called there manager. The guy was telling me how it is already so low and they put new tires, etc, etc, etc. . . You know how they do, but this didn't seem like an act. Finally, as I kept asking for a discount, quite mad he told the guy to take 700.00 more off. Said he was doing it because it has been just sitting in the lot and wasn't moving (it was waiting for me).
When I called my credit union they said, "They are selling it for what? What is wrong with the car? Are you sure it is a reputable company (it was a major dealership)? We will not only give you the price, but pay so and so fees too."
16 years later I still have the car. It has been nearly problem free until it hit about 180,00 miles. I think it would have still been in better shape even then, but I kinda neglected it the last couple years I had it.
Coincidence. Maybe some will say these things aren't important to God, but I know better. Maybe I am not mature enough, but as my brother once said, "Jo, remember when we lived in New York and we were kids . . . we had things wrong regarding theology, but God moved powerfully. We were just kids that really loved the Lord and wanted to know Him more and see people helped and healed and God used us."
God is a God that wants us to see beyond ourselves, but He is a very personal God too and there is a good deal of things that matter to us that matter to Him too because He loves us. Just ask my older sis. She sees how God touches her lives in such simple ways because her life is so difficult with a special needs child, that even finding the right box at her door to mail something is a blessing from God.
And for those who make think I am selfish . . . I won't deny that the old nature does rear its ugly head from time to time, yet I have left my home, my job, my privacy, changed my whole life to care for my elderly parents and so pa won't have to be put in a home because ma is old and has her issues too and can't handle him for a prolonged period by herself. Some times I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the girl that looks back at me. I joke, "I used to be cute. What happened? But, it's all worth it, even as it is so, so hard at times. It is the hardest thing I have ever been through, watching my parents get old and the challenges that come with it.
Yes, I can be selfish, but my life is also a testimony to how much I care for others, and am willing to give up for them.
Anyway, I know my fluffy is in heaven, and other pets. I just know and I don't believe there is anything in scripture that contradicts that.
People may be right in their own eyes, but the Lord looks upon the heart - Proverbs