"Search My Heart O Lord"
By Zach Wood
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
If a stranger were to come up to you and tell you that you needed to change your life and get your priorities correct, you probably not only would be shocked, but feel a bit violated. First of all, that person does not know you. Second, that person has just crossed a line that should not be crossed unless he or she really knows you. Each of us have had people, at some point in our lives, come up to us and tell us that we need to change our attitude, our priorities or get something else correct in our lives.
Now if a good friend or family member were to approach you and challenge you with some things, you might react and respond differently. This person probably knows you better and has more of an idea of what to say to encourage and challenge you. Granted, it is different for each person and for each situation someone is in. But we would probably all agree that only a few people in our lives really "know us" and can make those comments to us without setting us off.
You might feel violated if someone at your work place would come into your cubicle or office and start cleaning without your permission. You might feel violated if some stranger came to your house and started going through your personal things. Kids might feel violated if a parent suddenly walks into their room and starts rummaging through things. These are all instances where our privacy becomes violated. None of us like this. We like to keep certain things to ourselves and keep it that way.
When I think about how we lives our daily lives, I believe this is how we sometimes treat God in our relationship with Him. We live our lives the way we want to and only invite Him into certain areas that we feel safe for Him to be part of. Other areas of our lives, we do not want Him part of.
These past couple of weeks, I have been listening a lot to Hillsong United song "Search My Heart". This song has ministered to me so much and I began reading over and over through Psalm 139. Especially the last two verses where David talks about how he wants God to search his heart and remove any offensive ways in him. How powerful of a prayer is that?? I began feeling that toward God and asking Him to seriously come in and find offensive ways in me.
When we allow God to search our hearts and find offensive things in us, it can be scary. We may feel violated at first, just like we would feel if someone we did not know challenged our priorities. We get set in many ways and we do not want to change. However, God is not intending to violate us, but simply desires to change who we are and what we have allowed ourselves to become from worldly influences and our own desires to chase after things that do not please Him.
Truth is, God has every right to come in and remove what is nasty and filthy in our hearts. That is truly the only way He can fully cleanse us and restore us. We must be willing to let Him in and "clean house".
I would encourage you to go online and listen to that song "Search My Heart" by Hillsong United. It is a wonderful and powerful song of worship that will challenge and inspire you to allow God to mold you and restore you. It has been a blessing to me and has really ministered to me the past couple of weeks.
Will you allow Him to search your heart and restore you?