So sorry you're going through your health struggle! Please know I'll keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Yes, you are in God's hands -- the very best care you could possibly get!
I hope you don't mind my sharing a passage of scripture with you?
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."
Love & hugs,